California Dreamin' and Free "The Divine Wheel"

I’m now living in San Francisco, and by that I have to lessen my writing every day, actually, I’m lucky to write a thousand words per day. God, there is so much to do here, I mean, I’m a nurse in my home country but I need to take a few exams before I can take the exam that would approve me of license in California. My head aches just thinking of it, seriously…  

I have to take Toefl, if you don’t know that it’s an English proficiency exam. I have already taken it but I failed in speaking, not really failed but I haven’t met the requirement grade to pass it in the state I’m applying at, which is 26. And do you know what my score was? 18. Bleeping 18. I stuttered a lot in the exam and wasn’t prepared, I became lax in practicing. To be honest I haven’t practiced at all, like nothing. But now I’m practicing very very hard with the speaking section, and preparing for the retake exam this February. Pray that I pass, I’m begging you. Anyway I passed the reading, listening and writing sections with flying colors.

So that’s why I don’t write that much, not until I passed my exams. If I passed them and have a nursing job in the city then I’ll be writing like a freak again. I’d be publishing a book every month.

And my sales froze, as in they are dead now. So I’m going to make my very first installment in my Trinity Nexus Series free. Yeah, that’s right, my labor of love I’d be registering for free. Can you believe that? I reckon than if I got a nursing job then it would surpass my monthly allowance from indie publishing easily (not unless if I write erotica, if you know what I mean).  

I’ve been working on a few titles, one of them entitled “Sandmen” and the other is the continuation of The Gamer.

That’s all for now.

The Bestseller Theories

I’ve searched this on the internet but never found anything like this.

The Bestseller Theories.

With my restless mind and thinking too much of many nonsensical things, I thought about deconstructing why bestsellers are bestsellers. What are their appeals to us that they made our brains remember and cherish them? Why do we consider discussing about these books in an extent that the same discussions go on for years? I want to know.

This harebrained idea of mine came to me when I was searching for ‘how things go viral’. This has been a part of my marketing research which then led me to ‘marketing: word of mouth’. Both are informative and insightful on how the minds of the human race of the 21^st century work.

It was first pointed out by Aristotle in his ‘Modes of Persuasion’ (I’ve read this on Forbes if memory serves): Ethos, Pathos, Logos—Appeal of Authority (sometimes called ethical appeal), Emotional and Logical appeal. And then there is the element of ‘positivity’—which is greatly used by some headline makes for baiting the people to read the whole article. And they also putting that ‘positivity element’ in their article even there is grimness to it, they will put hope. This is cats go viral.

But we’re not here to talk about felines and their world domination plans, we are here to talk about why bestsellers stay in the reader’s heart.

So without further ado, here are my crazy theories (that would be in bullet form—yay enumeration!)

• The Hook Theory/Key Element

Of course, a good book needs a great hook, and we will find this in every bestseller that turned into movie in the recent years. I’m talking about an unknown author with his or her equally unknown book that became a sudden success.
One should be observant with their very first pages. It’s art on its right.

• Prose Speed Theory/Engine Element

This needs an experienced writer (doesn’t always mean you should be really experienced to do it), a somewho that mastered his/her writing voice to a certain degree. This means the flow of the writing, the connection between sentences and the minimal redundancy of the phrases—the organic The organic flow that keeps you going and going and going until it’s 3 am and you need to wake up early. If you want a good example read books by Gillian Flynn.     

• Plot Theory/Fuel Element

It’s all in the story. We always wanted to know what will happen to the characters that have been put into stressful circumstances—a collective circumstances meaning the plot itself. The danger looming. The mutiny that is about to happen. The infidelity. The certain death. All of this makes us care for the fictional people in the pages.
There is also the world the author created which is also a part of the plot (this is for the fantasy and scifi novels though)—look at Harry Potter, it has all the elements, but what I loved about it when I first saw in it theaters was the world J.K Rowling created.

• The Push Theory/Wheel Element

And finally, the Push. This can be done subtly or in more obvious way. In the ‘obvious’ team it’s all about the cliffhangers at the very end of each chapter, and now, as I see it as a trend, in the very end of every book in a series. The subtle ones are more difficult because the Push in them is the mystery element. That thing that every character is talking about in the book but none of them actually saw it in person. Hugh Howey’s WOOL is a very, very good example.

There are many more theories of mine in my skull, which I would further refine in the coming days. I also thought of incorporating every theory in those bestsellers on our bookshelves—a detailed review so to speak of each bestselling book.  

Thank you for the views!

Since this is “Chronicles of a Writer” I’ll be honest with you in this blog’s pageviews: 588. Now I have no expectations of that in becoming utterly higherthat once dreamed. But mind you, indie authors really care about that during the first months, eve years sometimes. It’s normal. It happened to me and sometimes I’m still longing for that overwhelming pageviews. But I think I’m in this show long enough to not to care about such petty things (No, not British).

Sure, I’m happy someone is able to find this little public diary that really is against my beliefs in sharing myself to people who might not care, but hey, I’m not promoting this site, so I didn’t plunge the information of this blog in their throats—all people who’d come here came in their own freewill (which I promote greatly).

588 pageviews. That’s a lot, at least for this indie prawn—gives me confidence at times how matter small that number is compared to the big guys. It’s not an Amanda Hocking number or Hugh Howey’s number, but that, my friend, is my number. And you know I’m proud of it when you read this.

Being a blogger should be 0.000009% of being an indie author, most of the times they/we should be writing great stories because it’s the only way to gain traction in every online retail bookstore. Writers should remember that, that’s why we are called writers in the first place. One shouldn’t be scowling about low pageviews, one should be scowling about the sales—no, not the sales yet, traction would exist if the book is there for quite some time (that is if the writer isn’t paying for ads)—one should be scowling in stories undone, stories that should be in the readers hands.       

So yeah, I still care for the pageviews but only a part of me, just a few cells floating around my body. But I’m still thankful for that number. I’m not a hopeless dreamer, I’m just a realist. The times my books have been downloaded are still few, well not that few but few. Of course there are more free books I’ve given away than the actual brought books, and free would always remain stagnant in kindles and the ereader, they wouldn’t be reading those for months—the chances are very low, and this passive marketing is very slow and the fantasy genre is a hard sell if people don’t know you or if there’s no hint of romance in your books—admit it, we’re in the trend right now, Teen Girl + Teen Boy = Romance… Romance + adventure + fantasy = sales. There should be a subtle sexual tension in there too to complete the YA urban fantasy experience. Romance I have, but just a tad, nothing too complicated, at least in book one.

These pageviews I have, like I said, have been without promotion in other sites. I’m not checking other blogs yet so that means I’m not commenting on any blog related to mine. I know what you’re thinking, It’s stupid. I’m in my stupid stages in being an indie, it’ll pass (time of approximation: unknown).   

The Gamer continuation

The Gamer is not just a short story. The original plan was a standalone novel, and “The Gamer” is just the first part. Its main title is “Hackers”, it’s the story of the corporate genius that made the HyperWorlds possible. I’m yet to study some law to validate some human rights he violated because of what happened in the protagonist of the Gamer. It would be fun and there would be a twist (obviously) in the end.

I’m just finishing the next installment to the Trinity Legends and the third book of Trinity Nexus. 

The Divine Wheel comeback and the 3rd Nexus

Now I’ve thought a lot about this, so I changed the name of my first book from “The Last Disceptarix” to (its original title) “The Divine Wheel”. I know, I know, that’s a shitty move, but it’s a sensible move because the word Disceptarix is so alien to people, and in the past I had more sales with it.

And I don’t know if it was just coincidence or someone that viewed my last post gave pity on me, because I had a sale immediately when the title has been changed. Weird huh? I don’t know but I’m thankful. Maybe it was from Kboard—*shrugs*.

Also, I’m releasing the next installment for Trinity Nexus this month. Its past title was “The Unbecoming of Deaths” but I changed it to “The Grim Articles” because of its aesthetics on the cover.  And I’m going to reveal it here side by side with the first installments. So feast your eyes imaginary readers!!!!!

Failures of an Indie Author

This isn’t completely about that, this is about being proud of our failures so we can smile at our little successes. Why am I writing this is because I have so so much failures recently that I thought of myself as less, and we all have those days, when that darkness creeps in and take all the things with colors. We always put a middle finger up to those days, forget about them like a bad break-up.

But those people we are seeing, those who already succeeded, failures are just dusts to them, they just swipe them away. That doesn’t mean that they do not care about their work, it only means they take it as a lesson and nothing more. It isn’t personal it’s just lesson; a noun you could improve on once you used it over and over again.

So let me tell you about my failures of a generic indie author that only makes coffee money out of his writing:

• I earned 2.88 dollars this month in all channels my book is available. Do you know why? Because I don’t advertise. I trust that people will see me, I trust the word of mouth. The lesson here is for me (or to any indie author) to start that spark before the fire, to advertise, to put that book in front of the eyes of people who care. The other lesson (which is effective in the long run) is write fast. Don’t think about it, just write fast.
• I have two harsh, and I mean harsh reviews. The first one was justified because I’ve accidentally put out an unpolished work. The other one is just mean, you know those people who get high on shitting on someone, that kind of person.
• I have no sales in Amazon in months! Seriously, they are all free downloads, and oddly, I’m happy with it. They’ve found my book even though I’m not advertising. But see, free download has the possibility to be not read, it think, I have no experience in this so I’m just assuming with my crystal ball.
• No one is reading my blog about writing (this blog). I can go with that, it’s like a not-so-serious diary, it’s like my special thing. And also I have no followers. I dig that too. Same reason.

That’s it? Seriously? Yes that’s it. And I think, us, indie authors with no sales think of this too much because life is very long, day after day we watch that flatline of no sales. And it hurts, it definitely do, because it’s long, we obsess over this damn thing of not being heard of what out babies (books) have to say.

I have success in writing, yes, but telling it here would make me look like an asshole. They balance my failures in being and indie in someway. But we are about our failures, and how to embrace them by just admitting them and just do some-fuck about it. Yes, “some-fuck” is my word. Mine!

To finish this nonsensical post off, here’s a quote from an inspiring man:

Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.

-          Henry ford

Changing Covers

How many times have I changed the cover of my books? Too many is the answer to that, and, lo and behold, once again I’m doing it one more time.

I’m not satisfied on the covers, and whenever I’m like that, there’s this voice at the back of my mind that keeps telling me “change it, there’s something lacking, you can do better.” I’m doing this because I can. Professionally made covers are very expensive and sometimes (for me) unrewarding.

I can’t believe that there are some covers that not at par with some great indie covers. Sometimes in my genre I see a cover digitally made that still has the round edges of the brushed used on the cover-art, as in it was obviously there and hasn’t been smudged to at least make book look well prepared and not ill-prepared.  

I’m not that great in doing covers, I have many more lessons to have, but I’m trying to make it professionally done.

Right, so anyway, I’m now in the process of changing the Trinity Nexus series (for the preparation of its third installment), the Trinity Legends, and the Gamer. 

Branching out of Amazon

Not getting out, Amazon is still the main site for me. But recently, I have more sales outside Amazon and they only have about two titles that aren’t free. Amazon, I must say, isn’t giving me much love nowadays. It could be because of the summer slump we actually experience every year (which I hate, I think all authors hate). But yes, I’ll be branching out once KDP select agreements on my books are done. I like to see what these other sites would offer me.

What I’ve heard from some of the experts in self publishing is that one needs to value publishing in different online books stores for the exposure. Because apparently, exposure is gold. So I’ll be experimenting on this if it’s true, and I hope it’s true.

Also, I’ll be putting out the prologue of my book one of these days, a teaser of some sort.   

I'll be changing The Bounds cover, it looks like erotica (-_-).

What a Prawn has to say: AMAZON vs HACHETTE

Just today, amazon sent me a letter of request. It's a little bit long and I know you might already know about it, but if you don't here's the jist of what they're asking me to send to Hachette CEO, Michael Pietsch:

- We have noted your illegal collusion. Please stop working so hard to overcharge for ebooks. They can and should be less expensive.

- Lowering e-book prices will help -- not hurt -- the reading culture, just like paperbacks did.

- Stop using your authors as leverage and accept one of Amazon's offers to take them out of the middle.

- Especially if you're an author yourself: Remind them that authors are not united on this issue. 

This is about the "lower the ebook prices" by Amazon towards Hachette. And I'm still having second thoughts about this "sending the email" thing. Here's what I posted in Writer's Cafe.

I don't know what to think about this. There are various parts of my brain and each one of them are shouting something (I think they're my conscience). 

1st part: Let writers write. I'm a fracking writer, not a business man. SHEESH! 

2nd part: Yes you're a writer but you never heard of Hachette because its name hasn't reached your country until this corporation wars. You've only heard of Amazon. 

3rd part: Let Hachette do their thing, you know the sayings: 'adapt or die' & 'survival of the fittest'  

4th part: Most of your income comes from Amazon. And you never heard of Hachette, right? (until this... this dispute) Stand for amazon, have some balls and do what they requested you to do! 

5th part: Let the readers decide, like what 3rd's said: survival of the fittest. 

6th part: But do readers care about this? I mean... do they? If I'm a reader I don't care if they shoot themselves on the foot. 

7th part: Remember Henry Ford who proved his cars are better against the company who had patented automobiles. Stand for something, I don't care what something, just stand.  

I think I'm on amazon on this... 

History does repeats itself, maybe in another form and in another way, but it does repeat itself. Remember the Dark ages and the printing press.

Why have I mentioned Mr. Ford? I've just recently watched History Channel that's why. He stood for something that would benefit all. I'm not completely with Amazon all the time but I'm with them in this. Amazon is a corporation, a business, and they don't care about me a single prawn. But they are made of prawns, they care about that.

Many authors, I know, won't care. But at least I should.  
  
Maybe I'll send Mr. Pietsch a quote.

Free: Synthetics

It's free to keep the algos up. LOL. hopefully. 

Enjoy!

They called it a bio-technical revolution when the scientists have succeeded in developing a complete artificial DNA. That was in 2010. 
Humans since then can reprogram life itself, able to create new organisms from viruses to bacteria…. 

Since then we are still alive… 
… We still wake up… 

But that’s going to change… 

Disceptarix

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He is the last of them…

A voice said; a voice that came beyond every logic and every known thing that could be explained. It came from one of two beings that communicated (and always be communicating) in the form of meaning. Not words, not language—but meaning itself, plain and direct. Who they were? Well, they weren't alive, they were not dead either, they were nothing but eternal, those who existed in time before ours, before creation, before faith, before all emotions and before the knowledge of the opposites. But this is not a story about them, at least not yet. This is a story of the “He” who was the last of the other “them”. And who was this “He”? Who was this individual that the Eternals took the trouble in looking at? It was only a boy, a plain old boy who was, in the moment, sleeping on a mattressless bed. There was nothing extraordinary about him, nothing appealing, and nothing you could route for.

Well…

At least not yet…

Are you sure?

Yes I am. 

So it begins…

The Gamer

So, I’ve finished my fourteenth title and I’ve just posted it on Amazon. It’s titled “The Gamer”, it’s a scifi, and I don’t know what it is other than that. It’s a story about simulated gaming worlds and all of its complications and consequences.

Yes, it’s free for a certain period of time (in this case, five days). So if you’re reading this and have a kindle, go check it out. Here's the link: The Gamer

Funny Inapropriate Thoughts

The only reason why I’m writing this is because my printer broke down on me and I am about to buy one. I was trying to repair it since morning, and so in the afternoon, I finally gave up. Hate it. I should be editing a short by now, but no, this had to happen.

Anyway my inexistent reader (that’s a paradox right there if you’re reading this right now), I have a very little reasons to blog, that’s why I’m not fond of updating now and then. And these posts are unedited, raw, so it’s a little bit weird, I know, when I’m reading them last year.

What happened to me since November?

Not much, still a struggling writer, still reading success books that make me feel less hopeless now and then (they’re a good read, really good read. Any books by Malcolm Gladwell and Robert Greene). I’ve finished a couple of manuscripts, averaging about 70K words. But sorry, my non-existent reader (yet), I’m a slowmo at editing. Still have not enough profit for an editor, a lovely, dedicated editor that is your friend.

Ever writer wants that, a good editor. My dream editor would be a smart librarian/stripper girl (if I ever commit to a girlfriend in the future, I hope she won’t see this), and I would woo that witty girl. Okay, I’m going out of line here. See? See this? When I’m at the keyboard in the middle of the night, my words flow like hell and it basically translated to thoughts. Wait, that sentence’s weird. I’ll simplify it. These, these things I’m typing now, are my thoughts. This could be very dangerous and I might have lost you in the first sentence of the fourth paragraph.

That’s terrible, I’ve lost my non-existent reader. Pathetic.

The Bounds is out. I don’t know if I mentioned it in my other posts, but there, I still said it. Like I said earlier, I’m working with a short scifi, the book three of my series, a continuation of the short Synthetics, another urban fantasy book, another book of my second series… God, I’ve just realized this… that’s so efffing many…    

The Breakdown

Just watched Catching Fire and I thought it has stayed true to the book, none of that Percy Jackson Blasphemy. But to be honest, I didn’t enjoy the movie today, not that it’s a bad movie, it’s because I got a scathing review of the synthetics that is most of all, true.  

Hate to say this but the editing I did was skimming through it and that’s why there’s no, in any way, excuse. I edited and the latest edition is already publishing. I haven’t eaten yet because of that, I guess it’s a small obsession of mine (to have that glowing five star review. What kind of writer doesn’t want that?). I just hope when I have enough money or my mom won the lottery (and if she shares the wealth) that I would pay a professional to proofread all of my works.

Of course “my works” at the current moment doesn’t mean a thing. Still have no any kind of success to backup the things I’m saying in this blog. But the thing is, and the one I’ve been asking myself for the past weeks: ‘Should I care?’

The right answer for me is a no. I believe that one should always walk and nothing more, let the walk do the talking for you. These things that I’m having right now could be something synonymous to a breakdown due to that review, but it’s a lesser breakdown because I’m in no way intoxicated when I’m writing this. The closest to that is that I have very little sleep for the past two days, meaning my mind is all over the place. But I’m considering this as me growing a thicker hide. Yes, the hide of a self-pub writer with very less support system; meaning none of my friends write or anything that deals with literature; an indie that gets more bad things than the good. No rewards here people!  

Of course, this isn’t my first brawl with a bad review. I got a book back then which I got the same feeling. I know that you can’t please anybody and the world certainly isn’t a nice place (No it’s nice too, sometimes it’s just bad—just bad.)

I love Hemingway’s relationship to his critics, and also the quote: “Critics are men who watch a battle from a high place then come down and shoot the survivors.” A true critic for me is sharing the positive and a negative. Every single thing in this world has equal negative and positive things.

Oh, and yes, I know this post has the possibility to bite me in the ass someday. Ready your teeth, I shall have a thick bum that would eventually destroy them.       

Dark Procrastinated World

Today I’m not going to write. But I’m going to edit. Because if I stop in any kind of thing relating to any ‘book-work’ then I’m afraid I’ll be the lazy-man tomorrow. Writers, for me, have no right for rest days or vacation—that’s just me. But of course there are times we need to rest, but that won’t do anything good. The best way is to hypnotize yourself that what you’re doing is really fun, constant fun, that your work desk is wonderland.

If I stop then the TV will suck me right in its dark, dark, procrastinated world. Not good. Not good. And then there’s Nintendo—I just discovered HeartGold pokemon recently and I love it. I’m trying my best to stay away from playing, that by doing writing, editing and reading, that seems t work.

Synthetics is doing pretty good by the way, because it’s still free. I’m really surprised because it’s a short and those on the top lists have starts and reviews and all, (yes, it’s on some top category, but it’s not that a bigger deal because it’s in free category.) It’s the only one without a review. Pretty odd, right?

Digital (nonsensical, doesn’t-mean-a-thing---[hopefully]yet) cheers for me, baby! 

Goodreads revival

After a year of my goodreads account being stagnant, I’m finally able to navigate through it. Cheers for my stupidity!

I’m pretty much you and I know some stuff about computer some people don’t, but when I first look at goodreads, it intimidated me (just like HTML at first.) But not today, baby. It’s pretty much no readers around my peers, or there are, they just not as a reader now than the past year (yes, year.)

I feel inclined to tell it even though I still have no followers in this page. LOL. Maybe I need to be less than sporadic in posting in this site.

And yea, forgot to tell… Synthetics is up, it’s just 10k words and I hit the free promotion just now (don’t download it yet.) Not sure’ it’ll be a serial though.

Synthetics

I’m now tackling novellas and less of my Trinity Nexus series. My brain needs to stretch out and put other works out there other than Fantasy, if not then I’ll be obsolete (well, that’s my own opinion.) Also, I’m tired of advertising, seems not doing good with my writing. My guess is the best advertising is the books itself; write a good, short, enjoyable book, and pray it’ll get recommended by the reader to other possible readers. The only trick here is how to create a compelling story that wouldn’t give the reader a headache with the word count. Like I said, short and sweet.

That’s why I’m doing some novellas at the moment.

Already have one, a pre-dystopian story I’ll be having mid November or early December. It’ll be called “Synthetics.” The whole story is at the title, it’s my take with the DNA reprogramming that is actually happening today. I watched a TV program at NatGeo called “Synthetic Life” years back and it made me smile the whole time I’m watching it.

Can you imagine? We can now program DNA and put it into a cell to become a whole different organism. That scary and wonderful at the same time.   

Status: Trinity Nexus 2 "Solace of Truths" Publishing

Today I published the second (massive) book in the Trinity Nexus series.

Well, not a bestselling author yet but we have to dream with eyes open and do and do and do, If not then we just live and then die right?.I learned a lot in the past months, advertising and getting attention are the most of them (maybe one time I’ll share them with you!).

The past weeks are honestly grueling. I have to fight myself to finish all the chapter artworks in the book two. Other than that I have to compile them in a good Kindle-format and check if there are errors time and time again. I would’ve thrown myself out of a building if not for this sliver of a moment that is telling me that it’s on the process of publishing. That moment is now. And even though I know that only a few strangers would read it, all I need is them strangers. Like in the past, I never did inform any of my friends. They know that there is a book but the date of publication is a mystery to them. For me its better be judged by strangers than friends and family members in this kind of business.

Self publishing, now with three years experience on it, is harder than it looks. I’m trying to reach a New York agent but there’s still no luck. None of them given me a reply, or it’s just I’m destined to wait and any moment now their rejection or acceptance letter would be digitally delivered in my email. Well, I think my query is down under their slush pile of other hopefuls, I don’t know, it’s already been a month and two weeks I think.

Anyway, this is the official post of mine ending my second hibernation. Don’t know what I’ll do yet (edit the Trinity Legends’ The Bounds, move to the part 2 of book three of Trinity Nexus or write during NanoMo,) but I’ll be writing, that’s for sure. Just have to toss some dice so I could decide.

Whoever you are reading this, thanks, and have a great day wherever you are.   

(I’d post a link to book two but it’s still publishing, :D)     

"The Bounds" and a possible 2nd Hibernation

Remember the companion book/novella I’ve been working? Well it’s a whole novel now, something I really didn’t expect and didn’t want to happen. Its already has 30K words and counting, my main goal was 10K or 20K max but the characters won’t let me push them to the fast track, they have their own mind and own system that I’m very much afraid of. I call it “the Ghost sentience,” where the writer would be in a zone and his/her characters finally attained temporary consciousness and the author only becomes a witness to what is happening in his mind. Yes, that’s why it’s scary for me.

Do you imagine if I write a character who is praying to his creator? Like… me? That… well... never mind.

Also, the title would be changed from “The heavenly bounds” to “The bounds.” It sounds cooler for me, and simpler.

And right, the hibernation thing. I have this process of writing that I would cut myself from the internet completely for months so I could finish some of my titles. And there might be a second hibernation for me. It would mean days of complete writing in a trance with one meal a day and overdose of energy drinks. I work faster like that, and I also have to draw and do the final editing of the book 2 of Trinity Nexus.

If ever I did a second hibernation I think I would come back when I already published the book 2. Well, let’s hope that would be soon, eh?   

The Most Dangerous Thing...

Is not love (“love conquers all” don’t fit it) or anything physical because admit it, all physical things end. Nukes shall be detonated sometime, maybe a hundred thousand years from now, but ‘sometime’ is actually definite and just waiting round the corner. Let’s talk about those that couldn’t be grasped by our hands and only our minds.

“The most dangerous thing.” What is it then? Well this is only me and it would vary in every one of us. The most dangerous thing for me is hope. Yep, you read right.  

There are two mainstream media I know that has shown this. One is Neil Gaiman’s Sandman series (It was said there that the most powerful thing in the whole universe is hope) and the second is Dark Knight Rises (It was when Bruce is in the “big hole” on the earth, and there’s this rope that one could always climb at but would utterly fail in every try—hope is a torture device in the movie.) Hope simply brings people up even in the times of gloom. It could give life back at the person or it could do the opposite. I’m not saying hope is a bad thing, I’m just saying that just like everything else it has two sides to it. And hope in the first place is inescapable; it would be there when we didn’t achieve what we wanted. It can make us stupid if we latch to it all the time, it would depress us 70% if means haven’t met with ends.

The concept that derives its meaning is really like a drug—face it, we couldn’t live without hope (hoping for a better tomorrow etc etc) and hope in safe amounts would lead to great effects, but if given in high dosage, now that’s the time danger will start. And when the thing one is hoping didn’t come, over and over again, rinse and repeat, then this would enter hopelessness, the chaotic withdrawal from anything pleasant. It would be the time where the darks and the shades would creep in and you just don’t care. The world will be all rain and no shine.

Of course, I think there’s a stratagem to beat this withdrawal of hope, it wouldn’t be and inspirational kind but more of direct and conquer type.

If one is hoping for something, stop. Instead of hoping, one should do and only do. Keep hope as only a guide and then forget about it and just keep accomplishing what you appoint yourself to achieve. Hoping on something could only lead us to procrastination and feeling sorry for ourselves, that is if what we’re hoping didn’t come.

That is what I’ll be doing. As a writer I won’t hope much, I’ll just do. Doing proves more in results, and it wouldn’t betray you because you wouldn’t be found wanting by your own self.